February 2011
21 posts
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“For Tom Hansen, this was the night where everything changed. That wall Summer so often hid behind - the wall of distance, of space, of casual - that wall was slowly coming down. For here was Tom, in her world… a place few had been invited to see with their own eyes. And here was Summer, wanting him there. Him, no one else.”
—500 Days of Summer.
February.
So my best friend bought me a calendar in the beginning of the school year. I couldn’t use it until it was January of course. And now January’s over. February’s here. The theme of my calendar is called “Emotional Freedom”, and each month has a quote. Here’s this month’s quote:
“Emotional freedom means increasing your ability to love by cultivating...
January 2011
34 posts
I don't think I was ever able to
share with you the mini garden Elly made for me for my dorm room:] It really brings happiness to the heart.
Why are we even doing this?
Erase please:[
I never really had the confidence to do anything, because I don’t ever have the confidence in myself. I fear the worst. I expect the worst. It’s hard to change this, because I’ve believed this almost every second of my life. I’m trying hard not to worry. I’m trying hard to not think of what others think. I’m trying hard to let go of so much. But, all I’m...
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I am capable, I am competent, I can do this....
Deep down.
I’m still really confused. I don’t have time to figure this out yet, but I hope this is going to be okay okay, and not just okay. This is the only one thing I’m scared of the future for. Because, it’s hard to know if I’m doing things right without an answer. I hope pain doesn’t seep out into others, because if I could have it my way, I’d just have the pain...
“You can do it! I mean, it’s not rocket science:]”
– Tram and I talking about chem, bio, math, and writing over dinner<3
Your words
are becoming just words to me, and nothing more. The spaces between us only accentuate the nothingness that is present. Trying makes me gasp for air. Away from home is the only escape from you. I think I’m losing a bit of myself slowly and painfully as we proceed.
You've had numerous reality checks. And now, it's...
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I had an eventful day today:] My aunt and uncle from Minnesota came to California for a wedding, but they also stopped by for a short visit, which was nice, because I really miss them!
We ate at Greenzone, because they wanted to try something new and organic, and also because it’s Kyle’s favorite place to eat:D
Oh no the picture is blurry, but oh goshes! While I went to the tea...
Friday afternoons with Diana.
Life is really amazing and I’m reminded by bumping into a best friend I lost contact with for ten years.
Moments like these.
I realize that I don’t get to say, “This was how I always imagined it to be!” to many circumstances or situations. So that’s when I know I’ve got. Right here with me.
Hi,
or hey. That’s how things begin. With us, anyway. But, it never really ends with much. And so, this is all I remember.
How long have we been here? We’ve been here before, haven’t we? Countless times might I add.
We barely scratch the surface. We barely take a step forward. Change is inevitable, upon everyone. It was inevitable that we would also change. Without even realizing...
“When I tried to hold your hand that day, the rain was so heavy that I couldn’t see. How much longer until I will be able to be by your side? Maybe it will be a bit better, when everything clears up. There’s someone out there who loves you very much, but this wind only increases the distance between you two. Things are so difficult. Perhaps I could love you one day more, but it...
Best wishes,
When it’s 11:11, we wish. I wished everyday, well, almost everyday for the same thing. I wished this with all my might for over two years. I’m starting to realize that maybe I shouldn’t wish for this anymore, because nothing’s changing. So, now I wish for something new. To me, this seems better. And for the best. I hope I’m right this time.
I feel
like you’re just leaving me to hang on to the short end of the rope. Sometimes, or always do I rarely comprehend what you mean to imply, or if you even mean to imply something. I’m very confused, the mind and heart along with it. I’m at the ends of my ability to try. But, I try for the sake of not giving up. It’s okay though, I’m used to it. Because, that’s what...
The Bucket List.
I want to:
Change someone’s life in a positive way.
Withdraw from hot lays.
Lie in a field of flowers and look at the clouds pass me by.
Be friends with another person named “Kara”.
Make a time capsule.
Go to Paris and take a photo in front of the Eiffel Tower.
Go to Japan and take a photo in front of the enormous ferris wheel.
Meet the author of Fruits Basket, Natsuki Takaya.
Go to an...
The concert.
So I finally got to go to my favorite artist’s concert of all times, and I’m super happy:].
So how many times do I have to remind myself?
That I’m only human and I will only feel all kinds of emotions throughout life. All kinds.
What my chemistry professor said:
“Friendly Advice: Only the top 12.5% of high school students can go to UC and only the top 8% get to go to UCSD. Of those, about 50% do not take science courses. Thus, your classmates represent the top 4% of the science students from California high schools. In high school you probably could get an A in a science course with modest or periodic effort; however, that kind of effort will...
Yeah, you're right.
We do lose some happiness along the way. I lost some happiness along the way. The way of growing up. There’s something different about this time than the other time. I can’t breathe in the moments where I used to breathe in everything. Other times, things made so much sense. It was all clear to me. Everything was laid out in front of me to pick and choose. But now, these same things...
