December 2009
21 posts
Happiness.
You need happiness more than I do. Here, take it. I’ll be fine.
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A little bird.
There was a little bird.
It was confined in a cage.
Perched at the highest place it could reach, it peered out into the beautiful city covered by blue skies swirled with clouds.
It tried to escape, but couldn’t.
It realized no matter how hard, it couldn’t leave this small space.
Only allowed to take in air and see through the metal bars, it came to the conclusion that it can only...
Reassured as the sun rises and sets.
I thought I did a total jerk move today, but you guys reassured me that wasn’t mean or inconsiderate of me. In turn, you told me what I did was a courageous act.
Thank you. In this case, 謝謝。
And that's when it hits you.
Sometimes, there are just moments when a pang of intense emotion hits you right in the middle of your heart. You have no idea why and you don’t want to know why. You’re left there in the middle of the crowd, staring off into a distance. You don’t feel like yourself anymore, but what was “yourself”? You forget at that moment who you are, or what you really and truly...
Journals, and everything that was.
I’ve written and typed about my days many times before. I don’t know why, but I’ve always ended up tearing up the pages I poured out my heart on and deleting the entries I posted online. I’ve made a tumblr and deleted it entirely. This is a restart. And frankly, I regret deleting my original tumblr. I regret that i completely threw away many months and days of what I really...
From another point,
everything looks so nice. I really haven’t been myself lately. That’s the absolute truth. I denied every bit of putting myself down. I lost confidence, and that’s normal. I’m picking myself up slowly. Thank you to those around me, because with just a simple glance of yours, I smile. I smile because it’s so wonderful just to see them there. There, in my life. I’m...
Speak.
Tears, they speak, they tell a story, and they heal.
Filling the emptiness of one's heart.
I sadly admit that I eat most of the time to fill my heart, and not my stomach. I always contradict myself, because I am afraid of being unhealthy, unfit, and becoming bigger than how I am right now. Despite that, I eat on and on, regardless of the fat I consume. Fat allows for a happy heart sometimes.
We may not be friends anymore, but I won't forget...
That is the name of a group on facebook I’ve recently joined. I joined it, because when I read those words on the computer screen, I realized that there is nothing to what I have been feeling for all those years. The simplicity of the phrase, and its striking worded beauty started something in my heart. It got me thinking, and reminiscing. What allowed me to delve deeper into the back of my...
Rearranged.
“Let’s go back to the beginning and just relive the start. and maybe then we’ll remember to slow down to all of our favorite parts.”
Thank you, Lei.
Hello there Lei,
You won’t read this, but I wanted to write a letter to you. Actually, type, that’s more like it! I want to thank you for being there for me. I mean, really, really, being there. I’ve only spent time with you for two days, and you care so much. When others are there to scold me, you are there to tell me I am doing everything well, and that there is nothing to...
All I wanted.
I wanted to live inside a lyrical heart where I don’t need pictures or photographs to prove to me that this world is indeed beautiful. Only words can fabricate something so clear.
Aside from that, I have realized if there’s one thing you can’t stop, it’s your own thoughts. I’m always telling myself to organize my thoughts soon, but they’re always scattered....
There are so many things.
There are so many things I just want to say right now. I want to truly express my opinions, disregarding what kind of feedback I may receive. But there are things that hang on a lifeline. There are so many things I hope for right now. Have I really been that way lately? I know that I was not this kind of person before, who only hoped things would get better without actually finding out...
Here I am, thinking to myself.
It’s 9:12 and I haven’t started on homework. Procrastinating isn’t normally my thing. I have yet to finish math homework, study for the Government test tomorrow, and memorize these Biology prompts. Well, I’ll face that later. So I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately. I shouldn’t say lately, because we are thinking probably all the time subconsciously....
Starting over
is just a matter of fact in life.